I'll be going back to school in about a week and a half and, guys, I am so excited. I've missed having classes, being surrounded by people my age, all the friends I left behind, deciding my own schedule and doing whatever I decided, whenever I decided to do it. Even though I am a bit worried about some of my new classes *coughmathcough* I am mostly hugely excited to start them.
You'll probably think it really weird when I say that I've missed using my brain. All this summer, I've been working, answering phones for my mom's company. Most of that job is just repeating the same information over and over to different people. Not much brain work involved. I probably should have used my spare time on stimulating reading or writing thought papers or something, but working, surprisingly enough, is actually tiring enough that all I want to do when I was done is veg. I'm so excited to get back to spending the majority of my time learning. It's so much fun. Last semester, even when I was stressing over my papers like the perfectionist I am, my ten year old self inside was giggling in delight at how fun this new game of college was.
I'm excited to meet my new roommates. We've already become friends on facebook and they all sound great. I'm sure we're going to have a great semester together. I'm excited to socialize. I've spent this summer rather like a hermit, sitting in my office (bedroom), working, and I am so ready to spend time with people again in a casual, non-church or activity setting.
Don't get me wrong. I am not saying that college is my 'station.' I'm not saying I've been miserable and being at school will make me happy. I may have lived like a hermit this summer, but I've been home. I've been able to spend so much time with my parents, which has been absolutely lovely. (Random tangent coming, feel free to ignore) The older I get, the more self-aware I am, the more I realize that my natural state is satisfied. I'm almost always happy with everything unless someone else points out things to be unhappy with, or if I've already learned that, should I encounter such and such a thing, it is not good and I should not be okay with it. This natural satisfaction is good, and yet I have to be careful not to get stuck in something that doesn't actually make me happy, because I won't notice, I'll just be satisfied, until it actually makes me unhappy. /ramble over
Anyway, I think I'm gonna have a great time at college, but I know I will miss the comfortable, sweet time I've had here at home. I'll miss working out with my sister and Sunday dinners with my family and hanging out with my nephews (and trying to convert them to Doctor Who, haha) and spending days in my pjs and my new singles ward friends. It's been a great summer, the few minor upsets notwithstanding.
Here's looking forward to a great fall.
